Thursday, September 17, 2009

I'm hungry - My Adventure In Search of a BAGEL this Morning!

Last night, I had dinner at Claim Jumper- baked potato with veggies and some steak. It was yummy and filling.
Fast forward to this morning, I wake up and the first thing I do is try to go on the internet: Facebook,e-mails and read current events. While I'm reading, I realize I'm running late! I leave home hungry and say to myself, "I will stop and get a bagel!" As I drive away from my house, I realized "Oh no, I must pay the water bill!" Yes, it's tardy, meant to drop it off earlier this week, but failed to do that, so off I go to the Water Company. I drop the envelope in the night drop box and realize, "Darn it, I don't have time to stop and get a bagel!" #$%^&!!!!
As I sit at my desk, I realize that I have a guy downstairs who sells bagels, fruit and makes coffees. I take out my wallet, open it and realize NO CASH! But, there is a cash machine downstairs. I take my wallet and off I go. I get to the ATM and it says, "TEMPORARILY OUT!" #$%^&!!!!
I go back upstairs, sit at my desk and STILL VERY HUNGRY!!! I guess I will stay hungry until lunch time!!!


Or so I thought.... my boss walks by my desk and notices the pathetic look on my face. She asked, "What is wrong?" I gave her my sad story of my quest for a bagel. She said, "Silly, I have two dollars. Now, you can go downstairs and get yourself the bagel!" I was beyond excited. I given went down via the stairs. I get there and asked Mr. Bagel Guy, "what kinds of bagels do you have?" He replies, "I'm sorry, I ran out of bagels." WHAT, WHAT!!! He says, "it's weird, normally, I don't run out, but today I did." #$%^!!!

SIGH, I go back inside the building and take the elevator back to my floor. As I walk back to my desk, I heard my stomach growling. I just give it a pad.

I tell my story to my friend Turtle Chairez. She says to me, "Today is not your day for a bagel! Maybe it was a blessing in disguise (the Bagels were old). And you know the moral of story is PAY YOUR WATER BILL ON TIME." You know, I agreed with that.

Now, it is truly THE END!!!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Today's Act of Kindness

I haven't been feeling so good for about a month due to a sinus/ear infection. It's to the point that I'm actually feeling blue about it.

This morning my boss left bagels for everyone in the office. Around 9:30 a.m., I decided to get myself one (I was hungry). When I got there, one of my coworkers was there cleaning, so I helped her. She was telling me that her hubby always use to say to her that she's a bit of a clean freak. Well, as she continues to talks, I learn that her husband of twenty years passed away a year ago. Just like that, she was a widow with two high school aged children. Her son is about to started his first year at UC Riverside this month. She continued to talk and I continued to listen.
She went on to tell me that before she married her husband, he told her that he had renal disease and that he just had his first kidney transplant. If she wanted to break up with him, he would understand. She didn't breakup with him and that first kidney lasted 10 years. Then he got another transplant that lasted 7 years. But, the final crisis, he didn't survive. She feels guilty that she didn't call 911 as soon as he was having his crisis. She asked him if he wanted her to call 911, an ambulance or his doctor, he said no, not yet. The next morning around 2:30 a.m., the choice was taken from him, she called for an ambulance. A few days later, he passed away from renal failure.

She continued telling her story with tears rolling down her face. She said to me, if only she had called sooner, he would have been alive today. By this point, I'm crying with her. As I'm listening, I realized she needed to talk and I needed to listen. I told her if it happened that fast, then there was nothing to be done and it wouldn't have matter 24 hours earlier. She told me that the hospital told her that as well.

She then went on to say that she moved in her sick mother, because no other member in her family wanted to care for her. My coworker's children are helping take care of her as well.

I told her that she has gone through so much. She hasn't had a chance to grieve for her husband. She needs to give herself that time.

We never get over a love ones' death. We just accept that the person is gone and are thankful for the time we had with them. This is how I got over my beloved cousin, Diana, passing away. We gave each other a hug and went back to work.

As I sat at my desk, I decided to send her an e-mail. I said to her that in her grief, she lifted my spirits. I have been so sick that my moods have been gloomy. I said to her that she reminded me that life is bigger than illness. I am taking meds, eating right and taking care of myself. In time, I will heal and feel better.

She Thanked me for listening and that I was a blessing today for her.

Later that afternoon, a friend of mine gave me a fortune cookie, I opened my fortune and it read, "If given a penny for every kind act you'd be a millionaire." I smiled and Thank God that I was there for my coworker, who in her own way was there for me.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Music and Moods

I'm a huge music fan. I listen to just about anything. WHY???

Music can make me HAPPY!
Music can make me Sad!
Music can make me Think!
Music can make me Dance!
Music can make me Write!
Music can make me Cry!
Music can make me Sing!
Music can make me Move!

Music inspires me to do my best. Thank goodness for Music-what would we do without it.
Life is a party, enjoy it, live it, love it!

Best Wishes from ONE, BIG HUGE Music Fan!!!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Hey, I'm Being ME!

Lately I have been feeling guilty for just being me. Isn't that silly? I mean usually I can take it but lately every little comment is bothering me. I think it stems from my feeling the blahs. Let me tell you about me:

*I live in Los Angeles, California- to me, it's the best city. I was born and raised in Los Angeles. I proud of this fact. Besides, it's warm and sunny most of the time.

*I love sports-I,especially, love my Steelers, I love the Lakers, I love U.C.L.A. basketball , I love U.S.C. /U.C.L.A. football, in fact, I love all L.A. based teams and I will, also, cheers for All California Teams (unless they are playing against my L.A. teams). What can I say, as Randy Newman says, "I love L.A.!" I love Michael Jordan-I can still watch an old video of him playing and I still get chills. I love Secretariat, the race horse, such a beautfiul horse who just crush everyone around him.

*I love to read-I read anything and everything I can. "You never know where the big ideas may come from."Tess McGill-Working Girl.

*I'm a loyal friend till the end, just ask my best friend of 21 years.

*Oh, I talk a lot. That's because I have a lot to say. And, most importantly, I listen. And I want to engage in conversations. I love getting to know people. After all, we are in this world together.

*I am a student of health and fitness. I can talk about health all day long. I find the inside and function of the human body fascinating.

*I love to learn new things. I'm self taught at a lot of things. If I ask a question and I don't get the answer, no sweat- I will find the answer somehow.

*I love make-up, clothes and shoes. I love wearing skirts-hello, floral, pleated, a-line! I get excited over the new shades of lipgloss every season. I love great bags with matching wallets, of course. I love shoes-don't mind spending money, because I always get my wear out of them. And if I like a trendy shoe, I go to payless or target to buy a knock off.

*I love music. I love all kinds of music; from classical to rap (old school rap that is) to techno. Music makes me happy, makes me dance. How can anyone be in a bad mood after listening to good music!

*And most importantly, I'm excited if you are excited. Seriously, that's the truth.

And that in a nut shell is who I am, I'm just being ME! Life is just too short. I've come a long way-I had a choice to either be miserable or to be happy. I think I made the right decision. As Baruch Spinoza says, "What everyone wants from life is continuous and genuine happiness." So no more will I be bothered by people's comments, why??? Because I'm Rosy!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Feeling Blah!

I named this blog, The Adventures of Rosyblue, but my life has been lacking material. Not to say, I haven't been having fun, it's just lacking something. I'm just feeling blah!

I'm forgetting birthdays, events, and sometimes conversations. It's like my mental me is taking a break, forgot to tell me and let me go on with life. I guess I had to discovered it myself. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment. My outlet used to be complaining all the time to friends and family, poor people or as my jersey friend says, "poor bastards." Oh, the other outlet was eating. Yes, I have issues with food (but that's another blog post).

Solution to conquer the blahs? I'm working on it. I'm trying to eat one raw food meal a day. I'm already feeling difference. I'm trying to do more meditating. I do feel a bit more relaxed. I'm trying to just dance to feel better. It's helping. Well, I'm always dancing, guess it's been my saving grace. I'm logging all the little changes I'm doing and will write about it soon. I'm just excited to be working on The Adventures of Rosyblue. I love saying that, I know it's silly, but it makes me laugh. Afterall, "thou shall not whine", but live.


Thursday, April 9, 2009

It's been awhile since I have updated my blog. My goal is to do better in the month of April!

Craig Sutton, a cool Twitter friend, asked me if he could interview me. At first, I thought to myself, I'm not interesting and who would read it? But, after speaking with some friends agreed to the interview. And let me tell you it was a lot of fun.
So now, I decided to share it, here is the link:

I would like to Thank, Craig Sutton, for giving me this cool opportunity to express myself.

And remember "always be a first rate version of yourself, instead of a second rate version of somebody else. " by Judy Garland.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Remembering To Pick Yourself Up... Again!

Why is it when a Hollywood actor dies the world stops? Is it because the person was young and you could see him/her flourish as an actor? Is it because the person had children, who will never get to know his/her parent? Is it because it forces us to see on our morality and think what if? I think it's the later. As someone once said, "Make the most of the time that you are given." We, Americans, rush through life and don't stop to smell the roses, all we smell is the dog crap. We tend to focus on the bad, instead of the good. We tend to say the glass is half empty, not half full. We make excuses for not doing what needs to be done. Change is painful, but necessary, in order, to strive and grow as a person. Remember when we were kids playing in the yard, well, when we would fall, we would just pick ourselves up and keep going. Somehow, we lose that as we get older! So when you think life is bleak, take yourself to a place in your childhood when you were knocked down and see yourself how quickly you picked yourself up!

And remember, as Henry Ward Beecher once said, "The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one often comes from a strong will, and the other from a strong won't." Amen! (I love this quote and here is some interesting information about, Henry Ward Beecher. He was a preacher in the mid to late 19th Century. He became famous because in 1875, he was accused of having an affair with a married woman. It was one of the most famous American trials of the Nineteenth century.)

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Misery Does Love Company, When You Allow It!

Spiritual teacher,Marianne Williamson, said, "Have you ever noticed that when you have a positive attitude, those around you are more likely to as well? Have you noticed that when your attitude is negative, it gets a negative response from others? You are not alone in experiencing the effects of your seeing. Those around you will reflect back to you what you have chosen to see." When I read this, I re-read it. I read it a third time and realized simply, this is so true!!! I worked in a miserable job for far too many years and justified my reasons not to change as every thing for a reason. Meanwhile, I was a pain in the butt to be around and I couldn't look at myself in the mirror anymore. I was so negative and I was getting it back. Oh I had people in my life who were positive ,as well. But, the negative did take over the positive. When it got to be too much, I realized that I had let this job control me. I asked for help. I asked God, what should I do. One Sunday morning, I woke up and realized I knew what I had to do. I made the decision to leave my job. It was one of the most important decisions of my life, because I simply chose to live again. I chose to laugh, sing, cry, dance, and live in the moment once again. I chose to be a better person to family and friends and most importantly to myself. I chose to step away from the toxic existence that was this job. I said no more, no more. Life is too short for that. I'm a much happier person and the future doesn't seem as bleak. And that is the point, when you are so miserable and unhappy, you don't the see the possibilities of the future. You only see despair. So, the lesson learned for today is, we must remove ourselves from situations that restrict who we truly are. We will be happier and more productive people in society. And, remember, for those of you that have children, children don't repeat what you say, children repeat what you do in life.
As Marianne Williamson said, "something amazing happens when we surrender and just love. We melt into another world, a realm of power already within us. The world changes when we change. The world softens when we soften. The world loves us when we choose to love the world." And, remember, life gives back, what you give out.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

25 Random Things About Me!!! (OMG!!!)

I was tagged by several friends at Facebook to reveal random things about myself. So, I decided to, also, include them here:

1. I'm the oldest of 7 (2 sisters and 4 brothers - yes, parents got a divorce/dad remarried).

2. I'm the oldest grandchild on my father's side of the family (there are over 40 grandchildren at last count - Grandparents were busy and had 12 kids)

3. I was born and raised in Los Angeles, California. (See I'm a L.A. Woman)

4. I have never been married or been in a long term relationship. (I don't feel bad about it, but hoping someday)

5. I am the CRAZY Aunt. (I dance, play and joke around)

6. I am a Fat Loss Survivor. (It means what you think, I have lost weight)

7. My Best Friend is a BOY. (When we met, I was 18 years old and he was 19 years old)

8. I love to read romance novels - you know Harlequin Romance. (I was 12 when I read my first one)

9. I always wanted to experience being a blonde so I dyed my hair. (A very painful mistake)

10. My maternal grandmother is rumored to have been Jewish. (She was raised Catholic)

11. I speak Spanish. But sometimes if you ask me to translate, I can't do it. (Weird huh)

12. The only country I have traveled outside of the United States is Mexico. (Will be changing that soon)

13. I love dipping wonder bread in cherry flavored kool aid. (I haven't done it in years)

14. I google everything that I don't know. (Knowledge is Power - not kidding)

15. I trip and fall down all the time. (I'm very clumsy)

16. When I'm super busy and thoughts are running through my head, I actually talk out loud to myself. (It keeps me focused)

17. I pretty much like any food. (not kidding)

18. I have a hard time finding hats to wear. (I have a biggo head)

19. I can't draw. ( I cried as a child, wishing to be the next Picasso)

20. I have had one fight. (I punched a boy in the eye, in the fifth grade)

21. I take 3 hour naps. (Smart people take naps- not kidding)

22. I can't parallel park or reverse that well. (I have been known to jump of the car and have my passenger park the car)

23. I'm addicted to magazines. (Seriously, I can't throw them away, can't tear pages out,... yes, I have issues)

24. When I am at a decent weight, people say I look like Elizabeth Shue. When I am overweight, people say I look like Monica Lewinsky. (People please)

25. And, finally, I have never seen a true snow fall, let alone snow storm or driven in snow. (Weird huh)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Remembering to Appreciate Life

When I think life is hard, I think about this remarkable woman. Her name, Irma Lepe, otherwise know as Tia Irma.
And conversations with Tia Irma, also, reminds me of reading a history textbook in high school, her head full of knowledge. I always wish Col. Reynolds (my own personal war hero) and Tia Irma would met, I'm sure that they would talk for days about history.
Tia Irma had many tragedies and triumphs in her life.
Here are a few:
Tia Irma lost both her mother and sister in a car accident in her early 20's, she was the only survivor.
Tia Irma was a teacher and a school administrator in her mid 20's. In fact, she became a true professional in her field of education before she got married and in Mexico that is huge.
Tia Irma had emergency, life saving surgery in her late 20's.
And most important to her, she became a wife to Javier Lepe (Tio Javier) in her early 30's (that was old in Mexican standards). She and Tio Javier were married for nearly 30 years. Tio Javier passed away in 2002.

Tia Irma and Tio Javier never had children, however they did see the world. Ask her about her travels, she had plenty of stories to tell. In fact, I asked if saw Vladimir Lenin's embalmed body while she was in Russia, she did. I thought, wow, how lucky to see that. I believe the only countries that Tia Irma and Tio Javier didn't travel to were Australia, New Zealand, and Fiji.

When I decided to accompany my good friend, Diane, to Vera Cruz, Mexico. I had no idea what a lovely, delightful woman she would be. She was generous with her time and home. Tia Irma showed us the beauty and the rich history that is Mexico, information that you don't hear about or see on T.V. She was the ultimate tour guide. She's the only person I know that had visited every single state in Mexico. She's one person that is up to do anything and she's in her 60's. She's a free spirit and so funny! In Tia Irma's little, red car, Diane, Tia Irma and myself were off to sight see. I especially loved Vera Cruz's oldest coffee house (El Grand Café de la Parroquia). It was the best!!! Rain or shine, we all were in the coffee house every single night, drinking our "lechero" (their version of a latte, but better)!

I'm so blessed to have known this remarkable woman. Tia Irma lost her battle with cancer on November 13th, 2007 in Vera Cruz, Mexico. She passed away quietly in her beloved house, the one she once shared with the love of her life (Tio Javier).

Tia Irma had many tragedies in her life, but that didn't stop her from living life to the fullest. Tia Irma appreciated everything she had, this included her relationships with friends and family. She's an example of what life gives you when you give to life. Tia Irma enriched my life in many ways for this I THANK HER!!!

And remember, "It's about living life with integrity, being honest with people that come across "your" path. Ask "yourself" these hard questions at the end of every day, 'Did you live life with integrity today? Did you move closer to your dreams and goals? Did you say 'I love you' to the ones you love? Did you smile a lot, did you laugh a lot? Did you meet someone new along the way? If the answer is yes, then that's a good day. And that's what I believe life is all about."
— 1985 hijacking victim Jackie Pflug

I hope her story inspires you to remember to appreciate life.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year - It's Time For Change!

Oprah says, "Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.” The thing is we should be changing. We should always be moving forward. We should never be the same person year after year. Change is awesome. I was once so afraid of change that my world literally stopped. I never achieved my goals, because I was afraid to fail. I soon realized that true failure is NOT trying at all. By embracing change, I have developed a sense of ownership to my life. This year I'm super determined to continue to work on myself.

I have goals that I need to work on (I will share my goals at a later post). It's all about personal achievement and satisfaction. At the end of the day, I'm the only person I need to answer to.

Happy New Year, let's rock 2009!